Korea

I was surprised when my MD announced that we will have a company trip in this year and we are going to Korea, yay!!!

I have been thinking to visit Korea either in this year or next year (keep thinking and I believe in one day my dream will fulfill) :P My colleagues have been monitoring and discussing about the weather day after day… and guess the weather will be cold during our visit, below 10 Celsius! I’m still thinking should I bring along the long or short cold wear? I’ve just bought a pair of knitted glove, should I get a new knitted hat?

I hate to pack and unpack luggage when going overseas. Every time have to think of what to bring along and when I’m back from vacation, need to unpack and sort things out from the luggage is really a big headache!

Last night while talking on the phone with DD, I was surprised when he told me that he will give me S$500 packet money. I was asking myself this morning, was it real? Or I was just dreaming last night? Unbelievable, I don’t mean he isn’t good to me all this while but, never been this good to me before. He must had did something wrong behind my back! :P
Anyway, the thought counts and I really appreciate that a lot (if that’s real) :P

That’s really sweet and warm. Sweet and warm is not because the money but the feel of a woman being pampered by a man.

Observation

I like to observe people too, espc guys.

I observe from outside (appearance) to inside (etiquette).

Outside (appearance) ---> Tidiness
Inside (etiquette) ---> Body language, converse, attitude

I think I am inherited from my father, he doesn't like us to wear sandals when going out with him. I don't mind slopping dressing but at least has to be neat and of course very much depends on occasion/location.

I don't swear and I think guys with foul language is a big no-no, turn me off.
So, "you" don't swear so much, k :P

Sick

I feel so sick recently.

I am not sure what is wrong with me, but.. I feel I am getting from bad to worse. I can be emotionally erupted and upset suddenly when nothing is wrong. I can be easily boil over something trivial. When this happens everytime, I have to "communicate" with the inside me, tell myself I have to calm down. I always do and say something I don't mean it. I don't understand why I did that. I have been struggling over this again and again...

I always think I am having depression. I think I'm getting insane soon...

Are you mine?

I start to look forward to something when I care about someone. When I start to demand more and more, I start to put on pressure to him and myself. When something is not up to the par as what I’ve expected, I become frustrated and unreasonable. When something bad happens, I start to panic. I panic of losing that someone. I panic of losing the relationship. I become irrational.

In the past, I was afraid of losing a relationship because I wanted to “own him” and make him belong to me. I want someone to be there for me.

Now, that does not really matter to me, not because I don’t love him but I wish to share every bad and good with him. I wish we could enjoy the companionship.

Mad about myself

Falling in love with someone is easy. Accepting someone and “adjoin” him/her into your life is difficult. It’s no longer you, yourself anymore. It’s all about “us”.

Once, my colleague told me this… “You really feel down-to-earth when you have your own child/children. You will no longer think for yourself only. In fact, you will try to see the whole picture before you say something or make a decision”.

I always think from falling in love till getting married and living with someone is not easy, at all. There are lots of compromises, considerate, understandings and the most important factors are, accepting and giving with sincerity.

I admit that I am immature when come to disagreement. I focus too much on personal feeling instead of seeing the whole picture. I am too emotional and selfish. I disregard the importance of solving the dilemma together. I agree that turning my back on a problem, it will keep cropping up all over again, and again.

With all these, am I ready to settle down with someone? I always mad about myself when I know all these and yet I'm not doing anything to prevent or solve it... Argh!

Precious

Thank you is just not enough to express my gratitude to you =)

I love you, my precious.