<24 Hours

Less than 24 hours, I'm gonna be in KL, hurray~

I booked the earliest flight which is 7.20am tomorrow morning and I have to check-in 2 hours before the scheduled departure which is 5.20am, woohoo :P

Tonight, I'm gonna hang out at the terminal from midnight till wee hours with my "beloved" sister, how "adventurous"! Hehe

I better make sure of myself not falling asleep and wake up with a blurry face, messy hair or dribbling in the morning.. =P

Lazy pt.3

Thinking of going back home on this coming Sat, I just feel so excited!!!!!!!
Feel that I've been a super long time did not see my parents, I just miss them so very much!

Of course, get to see my DD, I feel very happy too!
Now, I totally don't have the mood to work. My heart and mind can't wait anymore, they already "flying" back without waiting for my soul and body!

Can't wait to celebrate my mum's birthday, can't wait to see DD, can't wait to have drinks with old friends, I JUST CAN'T WAIT NO MORE!! :P

Marriage pt.4

While I was doing my stuff, my colleague whom sits behind me kept complaining about her argument with her husband. I didn't mean to eavesdropping, our place is just so near and I can't avoid overhearing what she says to her friend on the phone.

Well, she seems like having problem with kids and husband frequently. I mean, it is normal having tiff and stuff, especially married couples. Couples without kids seem like having problem to maintain the relationship. Thus, having kids is one of the remedy to keep the relationship ongoing. Now, having kids seems like a bigger "challenge" here, adults + kids affair.

So, to marry or stay single? Have kids or without kids?

"He was my priority. I was just an option. Fcuk him."

Lazy pt.2

Seeing girls dolled up nicely in pretty skirts, creative make-up, nicely groomed hair makes me jealous and have the urge to groom myself beautifully as well. Yet, think of the time and effort to do all these, I'm lazy!

From grooming to cleansing, one really needs time and endurance to do it step by step patiently. Unfortunately, I am an impatient kind of human. I would like to learn make up but, thinking of my face layered with facial products, sun screen, foundation, blusher, they just make me feel - I am wearing a mask which is 10 inches thick, especially I hate the foundation smell, the feel of oiliness and stickiness, I just couldn't take it! More ever, if you did not cleanse thoroughly, the pores will clog and it will cause of breakout!! I am not blessed with good natural skin and live in hot & humid weather in 365 days a year. Although I don't really use make up to cover my imperfection, nevertheless I know one's appearance is important, particularly women.

I should defeat my laziness to make myself look prettier, at least presentable.
Ganbatte!!! Hu~ Hu~ Hu~

Marriage pt.3

There's a piece of news about marriage on newspaper today. It mentions that there is no perfect marriage but, with hard work, it can always work. It quotes that keeping a marriage is like running a marathon whereas you have to put in a lot of effort to maintain the relationship and many feel like giving up once it gets too tiring and plainful to carry on. Hmm... is that true?

Is every marriage will (have) to go through this stage (test)? We are too busy, too pressurized, too many things to think and worry about. We can be independant and we can survive just by ourselves. Thus, it is not surprising that many women are not jumping into marriage and marriages breaks up is common and rising.

Marriage is just too "fragile" and I start to think.. is marriage really that important?

Privacy

Now I regret that I've approved my manager's request in my Face Book. Not that I wish to add him but... you know, sub-ordinate & superior facing each other every day in the office, forsure will come across this topic one day.

Having my manager in my Face Book list makes me feel I'm "naked", as in whatever I posted or updated, he will know. I don't really like to mix my private stuff with working stuff, it makes me feel like losing my privacy - now I can't complain about my works on Face Book! In another word - behave (boring).

The same goes to my MSN, I've been avoided to approve my manager's request for couple of weeks... ended up, I was "accidentally" authorized his request! Arghhhhh!! If I were to block him on MSN or delete him on Face Book, then I have to do the same to the rest on my colleagues and that is just too obvious.

Which colleague so "kepoh" go teach him how to play MSN & Facebook?!?!

Cupcakes

I supposed these cupcakes are for my colleague - Samantha, becuz the sender on the receipt stated Evangeline whom is Samantha's cousin. Wondering are these cupcakes for Samantha's birthday (08/08)? If to celebrate her birthday, why the name on the cupcakes is not "Samantha" and I feel sending cupcakes for birthday doesn't really make sense... cuz, look at the design, more suitable for small kiddo :P

I wonder if I steal 1 piece, will she realize since she's on half-day leave today and she doesn't know how many cupcakes in total, hehe. Check it out, cute rightttttttttttttttt?? Argh, look at them just makes me drooling.. :D~

Not that I love cupcakes but they are just so adorable!!! Someone please tie-up my hands!! =P

Improvement

I admit I have many shortcomings, and one of it is - I can’t take criticism. I guess most of us just don’t like being criticized, being preached, and most importantly, we hate that feel – critiques make us feel we are inferior.

I have always wanted to overcome this weak point because I see it as a room of self-improvement. If someone doesn’t care about you, he or she will not comment you in the first place. When confusion, disagreement, melancholy, scuffle arise, we are the one going to be responsible for the consequences. I feel when one is willing to accept the critiques; it will lead to the next step – to mull over and take action to overcome it. If one is not even willing to listen and accept comments, how is she or he going to change the flaws?

Don't be perfect because you are flawless, don't need to change, don't need to improve, so boring, not challenging at all. So? Let's be lousy!! HAHA =P

True Love?

This afternoon I was chatting with a colleague on MSN because she has nothing to do and out of boredom, she asked me “Who is your true love?” Hmm... What a tricky question! Then I told her “Define what is true love, please.” Well, her answer is – someone whom is willing to die for you. Wow, what an answer – typical answer you could find in Chinese drama or novel. I think that is too “standard” and it took me a while to think before answering her. I told her “I don’t really believe in true love...”

If you set certain “criteria” in a relationship and benchmark your loved one against precise “standard” to define that is true love, I feel that is very tiring. What is true love? Someone whom is willing to die for you? Someone whom is willing to give in to you every single time? Someone whom is willing to satisfy you in materials? Someone listens to you all the times? Someone will not break your heart and will not let you shed a tear? Someone whom is willing to take care of you and your family? The answer is just too personalized and depends on individual very much.

I guess to know one is your true love or not, use your heart to feel instead of using your eyes to see or using your ear to listen...

Ciggies

My new ciggies... Cool, right ?? :P

Diabetes

Remembered last time you told me that you wrote my names on a sheet of paper when you were still schooling.

Didn't expect you will do the same again eventhough just on a stick-on note. Aww... how sweet of you!

P/s: Don't worry, I wont tell your HR colleague... :P

Platonic Relationship

Fei said this to me "It is impossible that a man and a woman can be best pal or buddy, no way!"
She was so affirmed with her statement that platonic friendship does not exist. I was pondering... hhmmm, is that so? I supposed it is. I felt so because most of my guy friends turned "buddies" became "half-stranger" in the end. I can talk and share about anything and everything if I'm close to a guy. Perhaps, when we get too close to each other, crossing the bottom line to intimacy issues, I may have given them the wrong signal. Yes, I could have stop it if I spill the beans, but most of the times my “indirect hints” just doesn’t work out.

Well, most of them were one-sided affection and love which normally ruins the friendship in the end. When the truth finally surfaces, disappointment and anger are two possible ends to the relationship. When we both mutually agreed to “cool down”, back to square and to part ways before anyone else gets hurt even further, it normally turns ugly, very indeed. I’d lost many of them whom were really my “soul-mate”.

Yes, I admit I am not good at handling relationships. Anyhow, I really enjoyed their companionship and thank for giving me the support when I need people the most.