Fcuk up (case 4)

Hate it so much when you are just claiming and taking your own money and someone has to show you her bitchy face! It is not like I'm taking the money from her pocket, I am just taking money which every employee is entitled for!

Show your professionalism and make people respect you as a manager! BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Betrayal

Once, he told me this.. "I will not betray my current relationship before starting a new one...". At that point of time, I took it for real, I trusted him... I thot he was kind enough not to hurt the woman he loved by loving her whole heartly and not having an affair with another woman. Belief and reality is two different thing, belief is just an assumption, it does not hurt. Reality teaches you what is cruelty and you get "burnt" at the same time as a token for "digging" the truth which was meant to be hidden.

For the unlucky ones, one time experience is enough to last you for the rest of your life. It happened to me before, I am so afraid of the heartbroken feel, the insecure feeling, doubt and worries of being betray again...

I just couldn't take it anymore...

Transition

Everything will be different from July onwards. New department, new superior, new jobscope, new challenges and new expectation.

I am not sure will I be able to adapt this "revolution" but I bet it would be an exciting one. I am muddle up between taking up new changes and pursue new jobs in other companies.

I have mentioned many times before, eventhough I am holding an executive title yet my jobflow is more to doing junior stuff. I had 2 busy superiors whom are "too busy" to teach me new stuff and thus there's no room of improvement and everything is stagnant and monotonous.

Now, I will be learning new stuff, doing new scope, everything will be new. I will have chance to brush up management skill in a proper way which I think is good for me in long run...

Make up your mind!#@$^%*&

Confused

I'm so confused right now! My mind is mixed up between friendship and love affair...

When Samantha's superior saw her resume on her pc, she directly confess to her. Eventhough Samantha was trying to deny by saying she's not looking for a job and nothing is going on, she doesn't need to speculate. I agreed with her superior when she says "Silly you, I can't pretend not knowing and wait until everything is firmed then only ask, by then it will be too late."

Yes, I can't wait until everything is "rigid" then only voice out. At that point of time, I am just asking for reason "why" but not solution "how". Everything will be too late to find out, to identify with, to resolve - it's over.

Think wise.

Alone

It's been a while since my last blog - busy, lazy and no mood.

Drastic changed in my company in this year after I've been working at here for more than 6 years! Colleagues left 1 by 1, especially the close ones! I don't hear laughters anymore in the office compared to years back when I really enjoyed working with them... Now, it's all about work, work and work. So monotonous, so lonely and so demoralised.

Should I stay or leave...? =/

Pressurized 2

Many of my friends said working in Singapore is very stressful.

In the past, I never really felt so or I supposed I did but just a minor 1.. Nevertheless, it's a big difference now compared to the past.

I used to tell my friend "No pain no gain", and now thinking back.. I doubt I know the true meaning behind it at that point of time, haha..

Pressurized

Recently busy with lotsa works, many things need to think, ask, follow-up and decide.

Am handling a coming food fair, it's a good to experience the whole process but bearing the responsibilities and pressure is really unbrearable! Think of it while eating, think of it during working hours and after working hours, think of it during my leisure time, and even dream of it while sleeping.. I barely have good night rest in the night in previous weeks.

Throughout the process, I appreciate for colleagues' who has been giving me a helping hand, opinion, encourage and of course, I faced uncooperative and nasty colleagues.. thanks to them, now that I know who is worth to appreciate and who should be treaten with half-hearted!

All in all, I need to thank DD for giving me full support, valuable advice & time from the very beginning till now.. Thank you!

God bless me that the event will be successful!!!