Shinz L

iPhone

2011-04-04T22:40:00.000-07:00

Woo hoo~ my mobile contract is gonna be expired soon and it's time to renew and get my @#$%&* iPhone!!! Yippieeeeeeeee Can't wait for iPhone 5 so I'll go for 4 instead!!! Yippie~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ >:D

Airborne

2011-04-04T22:24:00.000-07:00

Indeed, I start to hate Sundays! I couldn't fall asleep in the night when my mind has automatically start thinking about works. I start to twist and turn, keep changing sleeping positions, adjusting the pillows, the blanket is so thick and hot under the fan, some "commotion" and I can stay awake for couple of hours till almost time to wake up - 6am! Yesterday was 1 of the worst Mondays I've ever had! I slept at 10pm and woke up at 12am.. insomnia till 3am+, almost fell asleep but got waken up again... keep trying to sleep till 5am++, rested for a while till 6am and prepare going to work! I was like soaring in the air instead of walking on the ground. I thought I was going to die, like my energy has been sucked out.. a body without a soul. I went to bed before 10pm yesterday and.... ta da!!!!!!!! I'm fully charged today! HuHuHu~~~ BUT GONNA BE DRAINED SOON BY WORKS!!! #@$%&*+

Reappearance

2011-04-04T22:10:00.000-07:00

Wow! Didn't realize I have neglected my blogspot for so long, 6 months+! Hmm.. what are the things that I'm looking forward to in 2011? Think of it, nothing much actually. Trips coming up in 1st half and 2nd half, Jolin's concert in May.. oh yeah, he biggest thing can think of now is my sister's wedding in Nov!!! Happy for her and hope could give her a hand in whatever possible as long as it's within my capabilities. But 1 thing I certainly not interested into - my job! SUCKSSSSSSS big time!!! Everyday, I feel pressurize and even weekend I still think of my work - how bad I've done, what are the mistakes I shldn't have done and start thinking how to plan for ordering/ controlling stocks, minimize out-of-stock situation and how bring up the sales to meet our commitment for this year! Out of these, the suck-iest part is, my increment is only $75, WTF!!! Sometimes I will think for the reasons why do I have to think so hard and make my life so tiring/ miserable and upset over mistakes and gossips when my increment is so fcuking little! Worth it??!

Getting Married!

2010-10-14T19:57:00.001-07:00

I feel it's so unreal that my sister is getting married! Maybe we have been knowing each other for 30 years (since the year she was born), I can't picture that my little sister now is getting hitched with someone and she has really grown up! Grown up as in having more and new responsibilities and change in the way of thinking and solving issues.

Anyway, I'm happy for her and wish her all the best! :D

Fcuk up (case 4)

2010-09-07T23:04:00.000-07:00

Hate it so much when you are just claiming and taking your own money and someone has to show you her bitchy face! It is not like I'm taking the money from her pocket, I am just taking money which every employee is entitled for!

Show your professionalism and make people respect you as a manager! BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Betrayal

2010-07-04T18:17:00.000-07:00

Once, he told me this.. "I will not betray my current relationship before starting a new one...". At that point of time, I took it for real, I trusted him... I thot he was kind enough not to hurt the woman he loved by loving her whole heartly and not having an affair with another woman. Belief and reality is two different thing, belief is just an assumption, it does not hurt. Reality teaches you what is cruelty and you get "burnt" at the same time as a token for "digging" the truth which was meant to be hidden.

For the unlucky ones, one time experience is enough to last you for the rest of your life. It happened to me before, I am so afraid of the heartbroken feel, the insecure feeling, doubt and worries of being betray again...

I just couldn't take it anymore...

Transition

2010-06-30T02:33:00.000-07:00

Everything will be different from July onwards. New department, new superior, new jobscope, new challenges and new expectation.

I am not sure will I be able to adapt this "revolution" but I bet it would be an exciting one. I am muddle up between taking up new changes and pursue new jobs in other companies.

I have mentioned many times before, eventhough I am holding an executive title yet my jobflow is more to doing junior stuff. I had 2 busy superiors whom are "too busy" to teach me new stuff and thus there's no room of improvement and everything is stagnant and monotonous.

Now, I will be learning new stuff, doing new scope, everything will be new. I will have chance to brush up management skill in a proper way which I think is good for me in long run...

Make up your mind!#@$^%*&

Confused

2010-06-30T02:13:00.000-07:00

I'm so confused right now! My mind is mixed up between friendship and love affair...

When Samantha's superior saw her resume on her pc, she directly confess to her. Eventhough Samantha was trying to deny by saying she's not looking for a job and nothing is going on, she doesn't need to speculate. I agreed with her superior when she says "Silly you, I can't pretend not knowing and wait until everything is firmed then only ask, by then it will be too late."

Yes, I can't wait until everything is "rigid" then only voice out. At that point of time, I am just asking for reason "why" but not solution "how". Everything will be too late to find out, to identify with, to resolve - it's over.

Think wise.

Alone

2010-06-23T02:52:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since my last blog - busy, lazy and no mood.

Drastic changed in my company in this year after I've been working at here for more than 6 years! Colleagues left 1 by 1, especially the close ones! I don't hear laughters anymore in the office compared to years back when I really enjoyed working with them... Now, it's all about work, work and work. So monotonous, so lonely and so demoralised.

Should I stay or leave...? =/

Pressurized 2

2010-05-23T22:34:00.000-07:00

Many of my friends said working in Singapore is very stressful.

In the past, I never really felt so or I supposed I did but just a minor 1.. Nevertheless, it's a big difference now compared to the past.

I used to tell my friend "No pain no gain", and now thinking back.. I doubt I know the true meaning behind it at that point of time, haha..

Pressurized

2010-05-23T22:19:00.000-07:00

Recently busy with lotsa works, many things need to think, ask, follow-up and decide.

Am handling a coming food fair, it's a good to experience the whole process but bearing the responsibilities and pressure is really unbrearable! Think of it while eating, think of it during working hours and after working hours, think of it during my leisure time, and even dream of it while sleeping.. I barely have good night rest in the night in previous weeks.

Throughout the process, I appreciate for colleagues' who has been giving me a helping hand, opinion, encourage and of course, I faced uncooperative and nasty colleagues.. thanks to them, now that I know who is worth to appreciate and who should be treaten with half-hearted!

All in all, I need to thank DD for giving me full support, valuable advice & time from the very beginning till now.. Thank you!

God bless me that the event will be successful!!!

Don't be a noob :P

2010-04-25T08:26:00.000-07:00

I have no idea how it feels but I guess it must be hurting like hell when someone you loved doesn't know how much you loved him/her. When we tend to do something for someone, we don't look for 'payback' but we hope she/he could understand and feel it. How about if someone couldn't feel it yet suspecting it and asking you to give up after you have been trying so hard all this time?

When someone is telling you that he/she has never gave up on you, trying his/her very best to become someone you want with tears in his/her eyes, will your heart melt? How can you resist someone so adorable like this?

Don't be a noob, k! :P
Rush over and give him/her a warm hug and thank him/her for loving you!

Colleagues

2010-04-25T08:18:00.000-07:00

Colleagues come and go & some good colleagues are just hard to say goodbye. No matter what, we still hope all the best for them in future undertaking...

Eventhough we are no longer working under a same company but good colleagues are worth to keep in touch and become friends to hang out with.

I hate colleagues who like to sow discord and wonder why can't we be sincere to each other?

Thigh

2010-04-24T20:59:00.000-07:00

It's been almost a month not updating my blog, was busy with looking new jobs, busy with event/s which just over and another 1 is coming up soon.

For certain reason, I have stopped dieting for months and now, day after day I feel my thigh is getting fatter and fatter, ARGH. I don't dare to step on my weighing scale anymore!!! I scared I will faint when I see the "unexpected" number with my own eyes! I am kind of scared of the feeling getting heavier, pants/skirts getting tighter and the fats piling up in my body, espc my legs!!

Start from tomorrow onwards, I have to go back to dietingggggggggggggg, NO MATTER WHAT!!!!

Korea

2010-03-22T23:34:00.000-07:00

I was surprised when my MD announced that we will have a company trip in this year and we are going to Korea, yay!!!

I have been thinking to visit Korea either in this year or next year (keep thinking and I believe in one day my dream will fulfill) :P My colleagues have been monitoring and discussing about the weather day after day… and guess the weather will be cold during our visit, below 10 Celsius! I’m still thinking should I bring along the long or short cold wear? I’ve just bought a pair of knitted glove, should I get a new knitted hat?

I hate to pack and unpack luggage when going overseas. Every time have to think of what to bring along and when I’m back from vacation, need to unpack and sort things out from the luggage is really a big headache!

Last night while talking on the phone with DD, I was surprised when he told me that he will give me S$500 packet money. I was asking myself this morning, was it real? Or I was just dreaming last night? Unbelievable, I don’t mean he isn’t good to me all this while but, never been this good to me before. He must had did something wrong behind my back! :P
Anyway, the thought counts and I really appreciate that a lot (if that’s real) :P

That’s really sweet and warm. Sweet and warm is not because the money but the feel of a woman being pampered by a man.

Observation

2010-03-22T19:00:00.000-07:00

I like to observe people too, espc guys.

I observe from outside (appearance) to inside (etiquette).

Outside (appearance) ---> Tidiness
Inside (etiquette) ---> Body language, converse, attitude

I think I am inherited from my father, he doesn't like us to wear sandals when going out with him. I don't mind slopping dressing but at least has to be neat and of course very much depends on occasion/location.

I don't swear and I think guys with foul language is a big no-no, turn me off.
So, "you" don't swear so much, k :P

Sick

2010-03-21T20:32:00.000-07:00

I feel so sick recently.

I am not sure what is wrong with me, but.. I feel I am getting from bad to worse. I can be emotionally erupted and upset suddenly when nothing is wrong. I can be easily boil over something trivial. When this happens everytime, I have to "communicate" with the inside me, tell myself I have to calm down. I always do and say something I don't mean it. I don't understand why I did that. I have been struggling over this again and again...

I always think I am having depression. I think I'm getting insane soon...

Are you mine?

2010-03-14T19:25:00.000-07:00

I start to look forward to something when I care about someone. When I start to demand more and more, I start to put on pressure to him and myself. When something is not up to the par as what I’ve expected, I become frustrated and unreasonable. When something bad happens, I start to panic. I panic of losing that someone. I panic of losing the relationship. I become irrational.

In the past, I was afraid of losing a relationship because I wanted to “own him” and make him belong to me. I want someone to be there for me.

Now, that does not really matter to me, not because I don’t love him but I wish to share every bad and good with him. I wish we could enjoy the companionship.

Mad about myself

2010-03-14T18:10:00.000-07:00

Falling in love with someone is easy. Accepting someone and “adjoin” him/her into your life is difficult. It’s no longer you, yourself anymore. It’s all about “us”.

Once, my colleague told me this… “You really feel down-to-earth when you have your own child/children. You will no longer think for yourself only. In fact, you will try to see the whole picture before you say something or make a decision”.

I always think from falling in love till getting married and living with someone is not easy, at all. There are lots of compromises, considerate, understandings and the most important factors are, accepting and giving with sincerity.

I admit that I am immature when come to disagreement. I focus too much on personal feeling instead of seeing the whole picture. I am too emotional and selfish. I disregard the importance of solving the dilemma together. I agree that turning my back on a problem, it will keep cropping up all over again, and again.

With all these, am I ready to settle down with someone? I always mad about myself when I know all these and yet I'm not doing anything to prevent or solve it... Argh!

Precious

2010-03-08T20:49:00.000-08:00

Thank you is just not enough to express my gratitude to you =)

I love you, my precious.

CNY 2010

2010-02-18T20:38:00.000-08:00

CNY is not really my favourite holiday but throughout the whole year, CNY is the holiday that I looking forward the most. I wish to go home to spend some time with family, especially my parents when I don't get to see them that often for past 6 years...

I must say that 2010's CNY is indeed boring, most of the time I stayed at home watching tv and dad only stayed in KL for 3 days+? And I haven't got the chance to "lou shang" with him yet till now, guess.. I have to wait for next CNY in 2011, sucks!

Why do we need to take turns to on leave??? The saddest moment is when I have to leave KL for SG and need to work in the next day! Perhaps, with this will only make us cherish the moment we spend at home with family... Looking forward to the next holiday to spend with family!

Ah D

2010-01-26T20:55:00.000-08:00

I was shocked when I got to know Ah D was dead!

He was still all right, hyper active and running around when I just saw him in less than a month ago! How can I accept the fact that he has left us?? That's so sudden!!! Although I don't always play with him whenever I was at home but I'm so used to see him barking at me looked excited whenever I just got home...

I can't stop myself feeling bad and sad when I think of him suffering pain till death... tears keep rolling down my cheeks...

I hope he has gone to a better world for a better life... I will always miss you...

NIL

2010-01-21T01:34:00.000-08:00

While I was preparing to cook my lunch (instant noodle) at the pantry, I was chatting with 1 of our tea ladies.

Live life to the fullest. Live for now, not tomorrow. Life is short, we should do whatever we wanted to... leave no regrets in future. This is what she told me... I guess everyone understand this but said is always easier than done, ain't it?

It's our lives, we should decide our own destiny.. but, sometimes... even so, we have no choice when comes to our parents, our life partner, our friends. We were taught to be responsible, be considerate, be thoughtful.

Yes, choice is ours. Having a choice is easy, making a decision is difficult.

Disagreement

2010-01-20T18:07:00.000-08:00

It is not easy when comes to any "discussion".
A simple discussion can lead to confrontation and disagreement when you merely trying to speak out your mind. It is very important to choose the right words, not hurting anyone, the way you "present" your thoughts and the point you want your "opponent" to see.

I supposed no matter we are the speaker or the listener, we should consider and think in other people's shoe to prevent any unwanted misunderstanding. When we only acknowledge our own feeling and neglect others, I regard it as "irresponsible".

Let's try to learn how to handle matters in a mature way.

Indian Wedding

2010-01-18T01:43:00.000-08:00

It was my first time attend an indian friend's wedding yesterday. I always looking forward to new things, experience something different which makes me feel great and excited! :P

I like sari, I like henna, I like anklet, I like their fiction stories about god.

Although I did not understand what was the whole wedding ceremony about, but.. it was a warm and nice one =)

Maybe I should expect to attend a Malay wedding ceremony next time? :P

Potluck

2010-01-07T00:47:00.000-08:00

I had never been to any potluck gathering before. It was fun to prepare your own food and share with everyone, especially when your friends like your food!

It was my first making the konnyaku jellies and I was so worried that we will not succeed! Thanks god all my efforts was paid off (hafta thank to my assistant too :P)

I was a bit anxious as I don't really know most of them. Luckily the gathering was fine, in fact it was really really fun and I actually enjoyed it a lot! Looking forward to the next one~ =)

Feels good!

2010-01-07T00:43:00.001-08:00

Although I don't get to see you day-in day-out, but it is good to have you around, always.

The distance is so much nearer now and I feel great!
Whenever we wanted to see each other, just one call away. How nice! Hehe :P

Resolution for 2010

2009-12-29T01:23:00.001-08:00

Another brand new year is yet to come! No specific resolution for 2010 but to live happier, full of joy and laughters...

Most importantly, I wish my parents stay healthy and happy always.

Diet!

2009-12-29T01:05:00.000-08:00

Been eating inappropriately in past few days which caused me to gain 2kg in just 144 hours!!! Oh my god, how should I burn away the extra kilos I've put on when I don't really hit the gym! =/

Gaining weight is easy but losing weight is like a hell to me. It takes time and patience to see the result...

Got to stop myself eating rubbish liao!!!

Btw, ain't my mum cute and adorable!! Hehe. Love my mum so much *muackz!!*

Bday + Christmas

2009-12-29T00:52:00.000-08:00

I had a special and extra-ordinary birthday and Christmas celebration this year. It was a simple yet a fun trip.

Orchard is famous for it's Christmas lighting and normally packed with citizens and tourists. Every year, I'll try my best not to miss out the beautiful decorations and snap some nice pictures to post online. However, compared to "commercialised lighting", I'd prefer a down-to-earth and heart-feel house lighting. It was captivating to walk around, snapping pictures and comparing which house's decorations is the nicest amongst all.

Thank you for this wonderful journey... =)

Sketching

2009-12-29T00:42:00.000-08:00

Used to sketch in more than 10 years back when I was at home doing nothing but reading the manga. My hands feel itchy when I see nice drawings but most of them were just Japanese manga like Ranma 1/2, Slam Dunk, Dragon Ball, Clamp, Detective Conan.. etc etc.

There's a table full of my drawing materials - sketch book, pencil, eraser, magic pen, marker, water colours, poster colours, palette, brushes, containers.. bla bla bla.

Stopped drawing for a decade, take some time to pick up again and patience is really important to keep up sketching...

Lesbian

2009-12-20T21:14:00.000-08:00

Saw a picture of my friend kissing a birthday girl, is this the way to measure the closeness between female friends? What is so fun about kissing your female friend?

I feel disgusted when I see girls kissing, maybe some finds that's seductive and alluring (more to guys). I guess different perspective between female and male. Perhaps I was once said by people that me and Fei look like lesbian (because we always stick together), whenever she lays her arms on my shoulder, I will tell her to "remove" her "salty pig hand" from me! :P

*Just posing only :P

Warehouse Sale!

2009-12-20T21:07:00.000-08:00

I was excited to attend any corporate events but not after 6 years in this company. Before warehouse sale ends, another "great news" is here. 2 more warehouse sale are coming soon! Initially was planned in end of Jan 10, now add up another one.. why?!! Is the response really "so" overwhelming??

Damn it! Another 2 weekends are burnt!!!

Tangyuan

2009-12-17T20:29:00.000-08:00

Wednesday was "Tangyuan Day" in my office! The best part is not eating but preparing it! I bought the pre-made (for my colleagues), but I don't like it because I feel it's not authentic! It's very simple to prepare it, just mix the glutinous flour with water and knead into dough. Roll it into a long strip and pinch off bit by bit, put into the middle of both palm and roll in circular motion to make small ball. Place them in the boiling water and wait till the balls float to the top of the pot. I helped my auntie to prepare it when I was still a small kid. I like the colourful balls served into the syrup. Normally we'll have white one (basic), green one and pink one.

To be creative, I normally mixed 2 colours together and roll then turn out to be either white/pink, white/green or pink/green just like the attachment here. How beautiful and yummilicious!

I prefer the sweet one instead of the salty one.

Distance

2009-12-02T21:09:00.000-08:00

I've always blame to the long distance that I've to bear with for my previous relationships. Blame the loneliness, blame the worries, blame the seduction, blame the betrayal... bla bla bla.

It's so difficult to maintain a long distance relationship and now I've given a chance for a "normal" relationship which I've been longing for, am I able to handle it? I'm not sure.. but I promise I'll try my best!

Independant

2009-12-02T21:05:00.000-08:00

All this while I know I am not an independant person. I thot throughout all these years I have grown up so much, yet... till recently, I just know that I am not as independant as I thought I was...

Stop denying.. Grow up, girl!

Home

2009-11-28T12:04:00.000-08:00

How I wish I could go home now... I really don't wish to spend even a second at here, anymore!

Starry night!

2009-11-06T19:12:00.000-08:00

My first time to attend an award ceremony, woohoo~

Last night went to SG Hit Awards ceremony in SG Indoor Stadium. Eventhough I had been to concerts before but I guess going for awards ceremony should be something different although still, seeing "stars" singing and performing. Last time, I really thought of buying tickets from SISTIC.. but I dropped the idea when thinking of going alone will be super boring and I don't think anyone that I know would wanna go for it :P

I got to attend the ceremony because it was part of my job, we are one of the sponsors... my fatique, worries, pressure got paid off when I got to sit the 5th row which... just 4 rows behind the stars! Ho~ho~ho =P

Sickcat

2009-11-04T23:31:00.000-08:00

DD so kelian... sick liao and rest at home now. So wanted to take care of him, eventhough I am not a doctor/nurse, at least I can be there to acc him.

Blame it to the weather or DD was working too hard liao these few days, never really had enough rest at home. DD, eventhough you don't feel tired but your body is giving you the signal that "he" cannot take it anymore liao... so, you better be guai stay at home!

I was thinking to go up and look for DD but looking at my working schedule and his weekend plan, it'd be better for me to ask him for his opinion. DD asked me not to go up because I'm going up in next weekend liao. Eventhough I feel a bit disappointed but I think that is the best arrangement, else... I'll have to re-fix my working schedule and his weekend plan has to change liao.

Meow meow~ take good care of yourself and be guai, ok.

Tired...

2009-11-01T23:45:00.000-08:00

These 2 weeks I'm totally busy with events which are coming up, soon, real soon - SG Hit Awards (5th & 6th Nov) and Food Fair EXPO (20th - 24th Nov).

There are lots of interactions between organisers, colleagues, printer, agency... just to make sure everything goes smooth on both days. Shooting e-mails and making calls already making me almost go insane! I just hope everything will be fine, then... I can rest in peace, hehe :P

Initially, we are not taking part in Nov's Food Fair but looking at the new products we are launching soon, we have to do sampling and food fair is the best way to attract big crowd to try out new products/flavours. Although I don't fully in charge for this huge event, yet... there are still things under my responsibility... I just hope time pass faster then I can go on with other works.

Handling events is not something new to me, I just can't stand of interruptions and disturbance in between which are trivial matters...

I am just so wear out! Looking forward to coming holidays...

Gentle

2009-10-29T01:31:00.000-07:00

Last night, Fei asked me "How do you know when your DD dote on you?". I said "The way he speaks - very gentle with his loved ones... like talking to his family and gf. Of course, some of his body gesture which shows his love too... like kissing the hands, ruffles the hair, whispers tenderly not to forget the meals, etc etc.

You may doubt if I say this... but I supposed, only sincere gesture can be felt with true heart :D

谢谢你的温柔.

No time

2009-10-26T02:19:00.000-07:00

It was so true that I couldn't agree more with DD when he says "We have no time to get angry with each other...". If you only have about 48 hours to spend with someone in a week or two, how could you get angry with each other when you're having so little time together? Within 48 hours, how can we maximize the quality time when we're together?

Think wise, be flexible.

The Return of Halloween Horrors

2009-10-26T01:56:00.000-07:00

It was awesome! I remembered the first time I went for it was in 2007 (if not mistaken) and I've missed out the 2008... As for this year, I saw the advertisement on the net and it looks good, so I decided to go with DD!

Well, overall... it was fun! It did not let me down.. cuz I got frighten by some " naughty ghosts"! HAHA
It was pretty creepy and exciting when comes to "Train of Terror" whereas the whole place was totally in dark and you do not know what and when will appear beside or behind you! Then, we continued to "scare" ourselves at the "Bridge of No Return". Some of the "ghosts" will hide in the forest and you be ready to get frighten "again"! :P

Looking forward for next year's return! Hehe

Blissful?

2009-10-13T23:41:00.000-07:00

This morning, I was chatting with one of my ex-schoolmate, we were talking about the attendance to another ex-classmate's wedding dinner in last month. Then, she asked me, when will be my turn? My turn? Oh, no no :P

She kept pestering me to show her my "Mr. Right's" picture, and when I gently rebuffed her request, then she asked me what's his name... hmm, you think I am stupid? Of course you will check in my FB friend list :P Well, I ended up gave her a lame excuse by saying that I will introduce to her in "one fine day" and when will that day come, who knows? =P HAHA

She said her ex-boyfriend did not cherish her. She then asked me, does my current boyfriend treats me well? Am I blissful now? Seriously speaking, I have never thought of that until she asks me. Does my current boyfriend treats me well? Am I really happy & blissful with him now? No doubt, I told her, yeah... he treats me very well... As for blissful or not, I guess I am.....?

I supposed when blissful doesn't come to one's mind, he/she is not cherishing another party well enough. All mankind has one fcuking same sickness, they will not realize how important another person mean to them until they'd lost them in life.

WHY???

Cat-Eye

2009-10-07T01:27:00.000-07:00

These 2 days I was watching make-up tutorials (How to draw a nice cat-eye) on YouTube. I guess watching online is whole lot better compared to just read it from any magazine. It seems like so much fun and so easy watching the tutors teaching and demonstrating versus myself drawing in front of the mirror every time!

Yes, I'm not good at drawing eyeliner. Started off with an eyeliner pencil and don't like it, easily get smudged within hours. Even though liquid eyeliner is easier to apply, yet... it is not easy to draw a nice eyeliner with a shaky hands at the first attempt, especially for make-up dummies like me :P

Feel like so wanted to get a gel eyeliner and practise at home on this weekend! Hu~Hu~Hu~ :P

Respect

2009-10-01T02:04:00.001-07:00

Once, there was a close friend told me this "Why do I always have the feel that you do not respect me?"

I was shocked when he told me this because I never realized that myself, at all. I supposed all this while we were close friends, thus... naturally I'd think that he'd accept my attitude. Maybe it was due to the way I talk, my expression, the way I react or the way I respond. We are so used to behave the way we are, so when there's no one "bellyache" about us, basically we "thought" everything is fine and changing is not necessary, therefore we continue to be the way who we are. Someone doesn't want to bring it up, perhaps he/she doesn't want to hurt the relationship or he/she "believes" that we'd realize ourselves in one day and transform - *p0of* :P

You may not be feeling good when you know the fact that you are actually "annoying" someone all this while... but, but.. it'd be good to know the fact that you ought to "dump" away the "unwanted" and change it to the "wanted" criterion...

Appreciate DD tells me how you feel and what you don't like... I really did not realize that all this while...

Mid Autumn Festival

2009-09-21T21:32:00.000-07:00

Mooncake Festival falls on 3rd October, coincidentally have to attend a wedding dinner on the same day. Thus, for not missing to celebrate Mid Autumn festival, I have celebrated in advance on last Sunday - 20/09! I know it sounds a bit out of mind when our Malay friends are celebrating Hari Raya Puasa and I am celebrating Mooncake Festival (2 weeks in advance) on the same night! :P

I am not particularly like to eat mooncakes but I definately like lanterns; especially come in different colors, different sizes, different shapes and different characters! I am not trying to act cute nor act young.. but it just reminds me of my childhood which I'd choose a fish or butterfly shape lantern, light up the candle and gather with my cousins, siblings and neighbours to walk around with our lanterns on hand...

I hate battery operated lanterns! Eventhough they come with modern cartoon characters, handy and safer.. but just lack of the "authentic feel" and losing the meaning in playing lanterns (a traditionaly way). Conversely, I love paper lanterns and glass paper laterns, so unique, so beautiful!

Cheesecake

2009-09-21T18:41:00.000-07:00

Bought all the ingredients and was thinking to "bake" a lemon cheesecake for DD to cel his bday at home. I've got all the ingredients required, bakeware (not all), recipe printed out and of course with my personal "advisor" to help me in baking the lemon cheesecake at the same time. I believe in her skill and most importantly she had baked for couple of times before, successfully. Having her helping me in everything, I naturally expect everything will turn out fine. However... I was wrong! Doing things recklessly is really not the way; especially I was so wanted to try and bake my first cake! Final say, my mission was failed! *cries out loud*

I shall practise to bake more often.. thus, I should look for mice for experiments from now onwards! hehehe ;P

Expectation

2009-09-09T18:36:00.000-07:00

My friend once told me this "If I've promised to help you, I make sure I'll do it for you, no matter what. If I am not able to help, I'll not give you my words." I've never doubted it because he never gave me any empty promises before.

That is the bad thing in offering your help to someone when you really mean it a good deed, try your very best to help regardless of the outcome. When someone is "receiving" the good deed, then she/he will start to expect something unknowingly or inadvertently.

When our expectation is not being filled, we start to feel awful and... we knew deep inside our heart that nobody's fault and we try not to put the blame on anyone. This is the complication and complexity being human. We just like complicating things...

Should I be optimism in expectation or shouldn't I?

<24 Hours

2009-08-27T22:36:00.001-07:00

Less than 24 hours, I'm gonna be in KL, hurray~

I booked the earliest flight which is 7.20am tomorrow morning and I have to check-in 2 hours before the scheduled departure which is 5.20am, woohoo :P

Tonight, I'm gonna hang out at the terminal from midnight till wee hours with my "beloved" sister, how "adventurous"! Hehe

I better make sure of myself not falling asleep and wake up with a blurry face, messy hair or dribbling in the morning.. =P

Lazy pt.3

2009-08-25T23:12:00.000-07:00

Thinking of going back home on this coming Sat, I just feel so excited!!!!!!!
Feel that I've been a super long time did not see my parents, I just miss them so very much!

Of course, get to see my DD, I feel very happy too!
Now, I totally don't have the mood to work. My heart and mind can't wait anymore, they already "flying" back without waiting for my soul and body!

Can't wait to celebrate my mum's birthday, can't wait to see DD, can't wait to have drinks with old friends, I JUST CAN'T WAIT NO MORE!! :P

Marriage pt.4

2009-08-23T22:05:00.000-07:00

While I was doing my stuff, my colleague whom sits behind me kept complaining about her argument with her husband. I didn't mean to eavesdropping, our place is just so near and I can't avoid overhearing what she says to her friend on the phone.

Well, she seems like having problem with kids and husband frequently. I mean, it is normal having tiff and stuff, especially married couples. Couples without kids seem like having problem to maintain the relationship. Thus, having kids is one of the remedy to keep the relationship ongoing. Now, having kids seems like a bigger "challenge" here, adults + kids affair.

So, to marry or stay single? Have kids or without kids?

"He was my priority. I was just an option. Fcuk him."

Lazy pt.2

2009-08-21T19:38:00.000-07:00

Seeing girls dolled up nicely in pretty skirts, creative make-up, nicely groomed hair makes me jealous and have the urge to groom myself beautifully as well. Yet, think of the time and effort to do all these, I'm lazy!

From grooming to cleansing, one really needs time and endurance to do it step by step patiently. Unfortunately, I am an impatient kind of human. I would like to learn make up but, thinking of my face layered with facial products, sun screen, foundation, blusher, they just make me feel - I am wearing a mask which is 10 inches thick, especially I hate the foundation smell, the feel of oiliness and stickiness, I just couldn't take it! More ever, if you did not cleanse thoroughly, the pores will clog and it will cause of breakout!! I am not blessed with good natural skin and live in hot & humid weather in 365 days a year. Although I don't really use make up to cover my imperfection, nevertheless I know one's appearance is important, particularly women.

I should defeat my laziness to make myself look prettier, at least presentable.
Ganbatte!!! Hu~ Hu~ Hu~

Marriage pt.3

2009-08-13T01:05:00.001-07:00

There's a piece of news about marriage on newspaper today. It mentions that there is no perfect marriage but, with hard work, it can always work. It quotes that keeping a marriage is like running a marathon whereas you have to put in a lot of effort to maintain the relationship and many feel like giving up once it gets too tiring and plainful to carry on. Hmm... is that true?

Is every marriage will (have) to go through this stage (test)? We are too busy, too pressurized, too many things to think and worry about. We can be independant and we can survive just by ourselves. Thus, it is not surprising that many women are not jumping into marriage and marriages breaks up is common and rising.

Marriage is just too "fragile" and I start to think.. is marriage really that important?

Privacy

2009-08-11T22:28:00.000-07:00

Now I regret that I've approved my manager's request in my Face Book. Not that I wish to add him but... you know, sub-ordinate & superior facing each other every day in the office, forsure will come across this topic one day.

Having my manager in my Face Book list makes me feel I'm "naked", as in whatever I posted or updated, he will know. I don't really like to mix my private stuff with working stuff, it makes me feel like losing my privacy - now I can't complain about my works on Face Book! In another word - behave (boring).

The same goes to my MSN, I've been avoided to approve my manager's request for couple of weeks... ended up, I was "accidentally" authorized his request! Arghhhhh!! If I were to block him on MSN or delete him on Face Book, then I have to do the same to the rest on my colleagues and that is just too obvious.

Which colleague so "kepoh" go teach him how to play MSN & Facebook?!?!

Cupcakes

2009-08-07T02:19:00.000-07:00

I supposed these cupcakes are for my colleague - Samantha, becuz the sender on the receipt stated Evangeline whom is Samantha's cousin. Wondering are these cupcakes for Samantha's birthday (08/08)? If to celebrate her birthday, why the name on the cupcakes is not "Samantha" and I feel sending cupcakes for birthday doesn't really make sense... cuz, look at the design, more suitable for small kiddo :P

I wonder if I steal 1 piece, will she realize since she's on half-day leave today and she doesn't know how many cupcakes in total, hehe. Check it out, cute rightttttttttttttttt?? Argh, look at them just makes me drooling.. :D~

Not that I love cupcakes but they are just so adorable!!! Someone please tie-up my hands!! =P

Improvement

2009-08-06T00:33:00.001-07:00

I admit I have many shortcomings, and one of it is - I can’t take criticism. I guess most of us just don’t like being criticized, being preached, and most importantly, we hate that feel – critiques make us feel we are inferior.

I have always wanted to overcome this weak point because I see it as a room of self-improvement. If someone doesn’t care about you, he or she will not comment you in the first place. When confusion, disagreement, melancholy, scuffle arise, we are the one going to be responsible for the consequences. I feel when one is willing to accept the critiques; it will lead to the next step – to mull over and take action to overcome it. If one is not even willing to listen and accept comments, how is she or he going to change the flaws?

Don't be perfect because you are flawless, don't need to change, don't need to improve, so boring, not challenging at all. So? Let's be lousy!! HAHA =P

True Love?

2009-08-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

This afternoon I was chatting with a colleague on MSN because she has nothing to do and out of boredom, she asked me “Who is your true love?” Hmm... What a tricky question! Then I told her “Define what is true love, please.” Well, her answer is – someone whom is willing to die for you. Wow, what an answer – typical answer you could find in Chinese drama or novel. I think that is too “standard” and it took me a while to think before answering her. I told her “I don’t really believe in true love...”

If you set certain “criteria” in a relationship and benchmark your loved one against precise “standard” to define that is true love, I feel that is very tiring. What is true love? Someone whom is willing to die for you? Someone whom is willing to give in to you every single time? Someone whom is willing to satisfy you in materials? Someone listens to you all the times? Someone will not break your heart and will not let you shed a tear? Someone whom is willing to take care of you and your family? The answer is just too personalized and depends on individual very much.

I guess to know one is your true love or not, use your heart to feel instead of using your eyes to see or using your ear to listen...

Ciggies

2009-08-03T21:37:00.000-07:00

My new ciggies... Cool, right ?? :P

Diabetes

2009-08-03T21:07:00.001-07:00

Remembered last time you told me that you wrote my names on a sheet of paper when you were still schooling.

Didn't expect you will do the same again eventhough just on a stick-on note. Aww... how sweet of you!

P/s: Don't worry, I wont tell your HR colleague... :P

Platonic Relationship

2009-08-02T19:19:00.000-07:00

Fei said this to me "It is impossible that a man and a woman can be best pal or buddy, no way!"
She was so affirmed with her statement that platonic friendship does not exist. I was pondering... hhmmm, is that so? I supposed it is. I felt so because most of my guy friends turned "buddies" became "half-stranger" in the end. I can talk and share about anything and everything if I'm close to a guy. Perhaps, when we get too close to each other, crossing the bottom line to intimacy issues, I may have given them the wrong signal. Yes, I could have stop it if I spill the beans, but most of the times my “indirect hints” just doesn’t work out.

Well, most of them were one-sided affection and love which normally ruins the friendship in the end. When the truth finally surfaces, disappointment and anger are two possible ends to the relationship. When we both mutually agreed to “cool down”, back to square and to part ways before anyone else gets hurt even further, it normally turns ugly, very indeed. I’d lost many of them whom were really my “soul-mate”.

Yes, I admit I am not good at handling relationships. Anyhow, I really enjoyed their companionship and thank for giving me the support when I need people the most.

十句話

2009-07-30T19:37:00.000-07:00

永遠不要對父母說的十句話

1、好了，好了，知道，真羅嗦！

2、有事嗎，沒事？那掛了啊。
（父母打電話，也許只想說說話，我們能否理解他們的用意，不要匆忙掛了電話？）
3、說了你也不懂，別問了！

4、跟你說了多少次不要你做，做又做不好。
（一些他們已經力不能及的事，我們因為關心而制止，但這樣讓他們覺得自己很無用）

5、你們那一套，早就過時了。
（父母的建議，也許不能起到作用，可我們是否能換一種回應的方式？）

6、叫你別收拾我的房間，你看，東西找都找不到！
（自己的房間還是自己收拾好，不收拾，也不要拂了父母的好意）

7、我要吃什麼我知道，別夾了！
（盼著我們回家的父母總想把所有關心融在特意做的菜裡，我們默默領情就好）

8、說了別吃這些剩菜了，怎麼老不聽啊！
（他們一輩子的節約習慣，很難改，讓他們每次盡量少做點菜就好）

9、我自己有分寸，不要老說了，煩不煩.

10、這些東西說了不要了，堆在這裡做什麼啊！
（他們總想把跟我們成長有關的東西都收藏起來，也許佔滿房間，多年後，看到自己還是嬰兒時的小棉襖，難道不是很驚喜嗎？）

相信很多人都或多或少的說了這10句中的一句或幾句，但請體諒我們的爸爸媽媽，作為子女，我們都不要再說這樣的話，人生很短，一定要珍惜你身邊的親人，愛人，朋友。不要等到一切都無法挽回了，你才知道這些人對你是多麼的重要，善待生命，孝敬爸爸媽媽，要知道，不管你做錯了什麼，爸爸媽媽都會原諒你的，『家』才是你永久的港灣！！

Dad

2009-07-27T21:45:00.000-07:00

I am not particularly close to my dad albeit many people feel I resemble my dad.
I am not my dad's favourite child amongst my siblings and I couldn't help myself being a green eye monster when my dad did it so obviously. Nevertheless, I never asked my mum why nor blamed my dad for the "unfair treatment". We indeed were very poor at that point of time, but I respect my dad for being the sole bread winner.

Perhaps I am a quiet person or maybe because of our legacy, we are not good to express our loves but we know deep inside our hearts, we care a lot and mean a great deal to each other. When I was still young, I used my pocket money to buy flowers, cakes or make cards for my mum & dad to show my gratitude to them. Now, we all have grown up and we don't do that anymore. We "substitute" with money as an act of love & concern.

Almost a month I did not speak to my parents until I dropped my dad a call in past 2 weeks. I know he's working and living by himself in Ipoh at current. I know he has to work till wee hours, bearing with the pain from bone spur yet nobody is taking care of him, I worry and heartache to learn that fact. Tears linger in my eyes after I hung up.

I wish I could do more as a child to thank a father in whatever possible.

Plain relaxing

2009-07-26T17:41:00.000-07:00

Had a great weekend!!
Although not any particular famous vacation spot, yet... just I love it - plain, simple, relaxing!

Thank you.

Apologize

2009-07-21T00:29:00.000-07:00

I apologize for my previous entry. I did not realize my anxiety was overcome by my anger which I think it is improper and immature... I'm sorry.

Disappointment

2009-07-17T18:05:00.000-07:00

You never failed me....
I hate the taste of disappointment! Now, chew it and swallow!!!

Love note pt.2

2009-07-15T21:16:00.000-07:00

Love notes in the house are not only 'specially' dedicated to me and Fei, but also to her husband and son. The house itself aldy messy and with the love notes around, makes it look like a "prison"! Just so many rules to obey, so annoying and so tiring... but has anyone give a damn to them? Who cares, at least I'm not! :P

Anyway, seems like keeping quiet is not the right choice, we have to retaliate!

At first, I was really teed off, crumbles the note and throws it into the basket. Now, we choose to "reply"! Hehe.. Wonder how will she react when she sees our reply :p

Notice "9 spoons and 3 forks" on the note? It was newly added to make sure we did not"ter-tapao" her utensils and throw away after we finished our packed food. What a "lovely" gesture!! =P

Love note pt.1

2009-07-15T20:31:00.000-07:00

I didn't notice there was a love note sticked on the sliding glass door until the moment I look up this morning. I recognise the handwriting - it was from my sister, Fei. I was curious and start reading... and pondering why is my sister writing this.. so, I asked her while she was still lazing in her bed.

She said "..Read the note behind it....". Oh, I didn't realise my sister was actually pasted her love note onto the other one. The love note was written by our "beloved" landlady and WHY THE HECK I DIDN"T SEE IT LAST NIGHT WHEN I WAS BLOWING MY HAIR ??!

This love note doesn't sound lovely at all and that's surprising to know my sister was "replying" my landlady, oh, how lovely they are! :P

Wanna know what they have written, check out the pictures here... :P

The last line was "added" by me :p

Touched

2009-07-14T20:51:00.000-07:00

Last night was watching one of the local variety show on tv. This show explores and recommends foods & beverages in Singapore (also neighbour countries), as well as... fascinating places to hang out, fashions, toys.. etc etc. Yesterday's episode has an additional interview of 2 local "celebrities" (Singapore Superstar) whom are getting married soon. Anyway, it was a short interview and nothing special about it except when they were requested to express their gratitude to their partner. It was started by the guy thanking the gf for being there for him... he was emotional, touched but choked back his tears.. I can see tears well in her eyes when she was telling the same to the guy... awww... how sweet!

Give in

2009-07-12T20:04:00.000-07:00

I supposed none of mankind like to lose.
Why? Win always make us feel good. However, win doesn't mean everything. Sometimes, it may cause of arguments, jealousy, misunderstandings.. etc etc.

Give in doesn't mean lay down your arms. Give in comes from maturity, understanding, tolerance...
Giving in may not be easy, but you may gain detriment and avoiding unnecessary spat... why not?

Who says a l0ser must be a dim-witted huh? :P
So, you can practise to be a l0ser from today onwards... hehehe.

Appreciate on giving in to me but... I'd rather learning to give in than wanna keep winning.
Thank you *winks* :P

Dry

2009-07-09T02:35:00.000-07:00

I never like air-conditioner in my life despite I love winter :P

I scared of coldness and it makes my skin very dry especially when people like me seldom drink a drop of water day-in, day-out. Other than dry, my skin feel itch and rough sometimes. Whenever this happens, I will rush to the washroom and apply some lotion on my skin.

Thus, I like to adjust the air-conditioner in the office and normally my "partner" will adjust the timing or turn it off for me... hehe ;P

Psst.. I'm not a Polar Bear mah :P

Ancient

2009-07-09T00:37:00.000-07:00

I always interested into ancient stuff - buildings (houses), clothing, shoes... ornaments, festivals, foods, history.. bla bla bla.

I like their clothing and shoes becuz they look very unique, beautiful, colorful and of cuz they are just too expensive to "own". Even I may found some (look alike) in China, I don't think I will wear them out, they are just too precious and you wouldn't want people look at you one-of-a-kind :P

I bought a pair of Japanese clog, never wore once and now still "quarantine" inside my wardrobe. I would be very happy if I able to get these....

So, don't be surprise if I tell you all this while I so wish to try on chinese opera outfit and make-up!Hehe~ :P

BKK

2009-07-03T00:24:00.000-07:00

Was discussing about BKK trip in this morning, eventhough just 5 months away, but thinking of it just enliven me~~!!! :P

Went to BKK last Dec with my colleague, albeit a short trip yet, fun! It is really a shopping paradise, if you are not a label-whore, BKK should be a shopping heaven to you!

Really looking forward to my year end trip although the number of H1N1 cases soars globally. Thailand confirmed has more than 1 thousand infections and another 2 fatalities recently. Though, it means H1N1 virus is harmless yet it is important to practise personal hygiene.

Was arguing should we go on 23rd - 27th or 24th - 28th but DD kept arguing with me, 23rd - 28th !!
I told him, we don't need to spend up to 6 days in BKK alone. I didn't catch his drift when he was telling me "Don't really get to see stuff also nvm, get what I mean?". Seriously, I don't get it at first... but now, finally I got it liao! Haha... Awww... how sweet!! Thank you~ :P

1st

2009-06-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

My favourite number - No. 1
Why? Cuz... I always wanted to be number one in anything, everything... haha =P

Now... 1st in every single month became one of the important dates in my life.
Hmm... We just have the habit to "collect" dates in our lives..
Hehehe~ =P

"Wet-day"

2009-06-29T02:41:00.000-07:00

Finally, the time has come!
The time I have been waiting for since long long time ago!
The happiest day of the month - pay day!!! Yay~~~~

Felt I have died of "dryness" since beginning of the month and now, I've come alive again~ kekeke :P
That day was talking to my colleague..

Me: "Why this month, the time pass so slow 1? I very poor leh...."
Blur Sotong: "Aiyah... becuz you keep looking forward pay day, the more you kancheong, the slower you feel..."
Me: "Nvm, pay day on next Mon, woo hoo~!!"
Mama Sam: "Dun so happy 1st hor, you wouldn't know whether on Mon or Tues hor.."
Me: "I know boss is very considerate 1, he knows our 'difficulties' !! hahah~~"

But later I have to dry "a bit" - returning money to my colleague! :(

Fcuk up (case 3)

2009-06-29T01:16:00.000-07:00

Guess, I will keep pestering her until she replies me!!!

(AGAIN, NO REPLY AT ALL FROM MS. V - even an knowledgement)

----Original Message----
From: S
To: V
Sent: Monday, June 29 2009 9:29AM

Have you got logos from all the major retailers yet?
"boss" wants me to keep a copy for future usage - like doing promotion and stuff...

(NO REPLY FROM MS. V)

----Original Message----
From: S
To: V
Sent: Tuesday, June 23 2009 11:10AM
Subject: Logo

Can you request logo from all major retailers for future usage?

----Original Message----
From: "boss"
To: S
Cc: "mngr"
Sent: Sunday, June 21 2009 10:38AM
Subject: Logo

Did we have soft copy of all major retailers logo?

Fcuk up (case 2)

2009-06-29T00:49:00.000-07:00

I was waiting for Ms. V's reply.... (I did the item list for her myself) and I waited until Thursday afternoon.. then only she says she will be going out to get the trays and ribbons - which means, I left Thursday afternoon to get the hampers done so that she can deliver out by Friday morning.

If I did not prepare the item list for her... am I gonna wait until Fri morning? Who's fault?
I tried to support her, get everything done (even not in my job scope), she didn't even say 'thank you" to me not show any appreciation at all!

I don't understand, why some people just like to make your life difficult when you're trying to help them!

----Original Message----
From:S
To:V
Cc: **
Sent: Tuesday, June 23 2009 2:36PM
Subject: Hampers

Ms V,

Can you roughly tell me what are the items you want them to be in? Also, please buy 5 medium size of trays and wrappers for the hampers.

Thanks

----Original Message----

From: V

To:S

Cc:**
Sent: Tuesday, June 23 2009 2:18PM

Subject: Hampers

Ms S,

I need 5 hampers, value at about $60 each. Can you arrange for me by this Friday?

Thanks,
V

Fcuk up (case 1)

2009-06-29T00:16:00.000-07:00

I was trying my best to help Ms. V for the Joint Promotion:-

1) Liaise with designer to rush out the artwork asap
2) Liaise with printing guy for the header board and entry form
3) Liaise with contractor for the floor display

The promotion kicks off on 1st July. I was trying my best to help her in anyway possible, keep rushing her to get buyer's approval and even, the printing guy called me twice so that he can help me to rush out everything on time. Why she doesn't show concern and taking her own sweet time???

Buyer's approval was on Thurs morning and I don't understand why she has to wait until Friday evening (knock off time 5.45PM) only confirm me?? If I knock off punctually, big possibility I only see her reply on Mon!! Having said that, we only left 2 days to rush everything for the promotion???

WTF?!
*even there was sth wrong with buyer's email timing, but I'm sure he replied on the same day!

----Original Message----
From: V
Sent: Friday, June 26 2009 5:54PM
Subject: Re: Fwd:Request for approval

S,

Please proceed with printing.

Thanks,
V
----Original Message----
From: "buyer"
Sent: Thursday, June 25 2009 10:28AM
Subject: Re: Fwd:Request for approval

OK
----Original Message----
From: V
Sent: Thursday, June 25 2009 10:37AM
Subject: Re: Fwd:Request for approval

Hi,

Appreciate your kind approval. I need to proceed with printing.

Regards,
V

----Original Message----
From: V
Sent: Wednesday, June 24 2009 9:09AM
Subject: Re: Fwd: Request for approval

Hi,

Appreciate your kind approval.

Regards,
V
----Original Message----
From:"designer"
Sent: Wednesday, June 24 2009 4:01AM
Subject: Re: Fwd: Request for approval

(attachment of design to Ms. V to get approval asap)

Zzz

2009-06-28T21:30:00.000-07:00

Yes, I admit... I've lost interest in my job since long long time ago..
There are many factors in it.. oh, pls don't ask me, thinking of it, such an "agony"..

So boring...
So tiring...
So sleepy...

Zzzzzz....

Gathering

2009-06-28T21:22:00.000-07:00

Was supposed to attend a gathering with ex-classmates (Form 4/Form 5) on last Sat but I couldn't make it cuz I can't get any bus ticket going back, darn! No thanks to the kiasu-spirited netizen! Argh!!!

I kept postponing from May to June and now, I guess I have to postpone until Aug! Feel so bad cuz I was the one who suggested for the gathering and yet I couldn't make it last minute... *sigh*.. but I was lucky that most of them are considerate enough and understand my difficulties, arigatou~

Hope we can meet up in Aug, and all of them could make it this time! *winks*

Considerate

2009-06-23T03:03:00.000-07:00

Maybe I am not as considerate as I think.. but sometimes I do think for people's feeling and yet, most of the time I got stucked in between - in between of 2 parties or more.

Sometimes I do feel tired... tired when I tried to put myself in someone's shoe and yet, my "goodwill" wasn't appreciated. Whatever I do, they are not based on what I think I will get in return. I just hope to "minimize" the impair to the lowest point possible...

Why can't people just "empathize" my efforts...? Perhaps, I was using the wrong way to "convey' my message...

Irritating

2009-06-18T22:31:00.000-07:00

One can be very irritating sometimes.. like situation below:-

Ms. V : Shannen, I have a joint promotion coming up, kicks off on 1st July. I need header board and entry form. I know you will tell me you don't have enough time for printing and stuff... it's okay if the POS materials reach us few days late...

Ms. S : I'm afraid I could not meet your deadline. You know, from designing, seeking buyer's approval, amendment (if any) and finally printing, I need at least 2 weeks or more and now I left about 10 days to complete everything!

Ms. V : I will let you know the details asap.

Ms. S : Can you request logo from buyer so that I can feature it on the header board.

Ms. V : What kind of logo?

Ms. S : Logo like we asked from Giant for joint promotion.

Ms. V : How and where do I get the logo?

Ms. S feels this is the "stupidest" question that she ever heard. Why ? Ms. V is the channel manager and handling this account, and funniest part is, she doesn't know how to get it and ask me??

Ms. S : Of course you can ask from SS buyer or whom may concerns...

(After a while.... Ms. S received e-mail from Ms. V c/w logos attachment)

Ms. S : So many logos, which should I feature?

Ms. V : You think which 1 suitable, then you use that 1...

Ms. S shakes head... again, speechless..

Ms. S : Can you please confirm which logo to use to prevent any mistake and wasting time to do the amendment...

Ms. V : Nvm wat, anyhow.. you have to send the artwork to buyer for approval..

Ms. S : Yes, but then.. I don't want to waste time to change the logo, can you please confirm me ?

Ms. V : Okay... choose the 1 they used regularly, the logo with retailer's name at bottom..

Ms. S : Thanks..

Transform

2009-06-16T22:21:00.000-07:00

I know you changed in many ways, be it mentality or maturity but I did not expect that "much".
Is this the real you or the brand new you?
In the past, you were trying to "conceal" your true self or "feign" someone who wasn't you?
No matter what, definately it takes time to "comprehend" and "accept" the differences now.
I guess, time is not the issue, matter the most is the willingness to be acquainted with all these "qualities" inside you, haha =P

I apologize on what I've told you last night. I know it wasn't fair for me to say that to you, afterall.. everyone is unique and has their own way of doing things. I could not agree more on the fact that, we shouldn't refer to a series of action and pinpoint that as the act of love or concern. I really appreciate that you accept me as who I am and thank you for all you've done so far, thank you.

If we have the same belief, I'm sure we can triumph over all the obstacles =)

Predestined

2009-06-15T02:08:00.000-07:00

I think I am predestined with long-distance relationships.
Else, must be GOD enjoy making fun of me!
When I was "up" there, he was "down" here. When I'm "down" here, he's "up" there!

It is not easy to nurse a normal relationship and to nurture a long-distance relationship it is even harder. Whatever a normal relationship needs, you really need to work double harder to keep the relationship on-going.

You need to have faith in your partner in what-so-ever he/she does.
You need to trust him/her when he/she is going out with who-so-ever.
You need to endure the "lonesomeness" when you don't get to see him/her.
You need to have the same thought with your partner so that the relationship could "blossom".
You need to have the patience when he/she is busy with works.
You need to keep up with the passion so that the relationship will not turn "wilt".
You need to spend more either on the phone bill or transportation fee to "feel" your partner's "existence".
You need to...
You need to...
You need to...

Kudos to couples whom could withstand the loneliness and win the "battle"! Hehehehe =P

Imperfection

2009-06-12T20:09:00.000-07:00

"Tell me what are my shortcomings?"
How are you gonna answer if someone asks you this?
To tell the truth or just answer perfunctorily?

Well, I seldom ask people this question because I know myself very well, I know what are my "imperfections" deep inside me =P But most importantly, I like to listen to worship more than critique =P, that's why I don't ask.. lalala =P

Don't need to ask me what are your flaws, you ought to know yourself better than anyone. You were asking me this question just to "ensure" yourself of the list you made? It doesn't mean anything for you to "ensure" without making efforts to "trounce" them. It doesn't change a bit by just knowing "them".. that's why I choose not to reply your sms, sorry. I hope you understand this.

GOD is fair, don't "ignore" your high merit while "searching' for your imperfections.

Sleepy

2009-06-12T19:06:00.000-07:00

Oh my god, I am so sleepy right now! Luckily today is Saturday, I just need to "show face" for 4 hours then I can go home and continue to be "sleeping beauty" again! *Bonus* - My "area" here only me "working" on this weekend, so... whether I'm doing office work or doing my own stuff, nobody knows =P

Last night went to "Suntec Entertainment City" with my colleagues. Only the name sounds "chio", just another newly opened karaokie + Thai disco (blood sucker). Last night wasn't really fun, not like the way we used to be - doing crazy stuff at the karaokie which we often go... this time around, they wanna try out the new place (still the same area), turned out to be - it is more expensive and whatever you want to replenish like tidbits you need to pay (each time)... "kiamsiap bos"!

We left the place around 2am... it was almost 2.30am by the time I got home. Still need to "drag" my body to wash.. my landlady still ask me "You still want to bathe...?" (YOU SAY LEH?) =.= I was so stinky with all the smoke smell! No thanks to my colleagues loh!

There was lightning around 5am+ when I was "meeting" my prince charming in the dream.. argh, disturbing me sleeping (dating)!!! I'm afraid of lightning in the dark, especially when I'm sleeping alone.. have to cover both of my ears with my blanket, then continue dating... eh no, I mean sleeping. =P Then, my alarm clock keeps ringing and I have no idea how many times I have to snooze it... and go back to sleep!! I knew I'm gonna be late today, be it since today is Saturday!!! Yay!! I ended up reaching office around 9.10am =P

Countdown: 1.5 hours to go!

June

2009-06-10T22:11:00.000-07:00

June! Another 6 months to 2010!
Well, recently a bit tied-up with works... have to handle from 1 end to another end, that could be tiring and frustrating at times especially involves many parties and you seek for co-operation from every one of them..

Well, subside the works.. I have many things to look forward to! Penang trip, ex-classmate gathering, Mum's birthday, DD's birthday, X'mas celebration, own birthday, BKK trip (if possible), next year's CNY.. wow! Just can't wait! Hehe :P

Albeit so many celebrations are waiting for me, at the same time, I'm gonna broke to the core from now onwards! :~~

Marriage pt.2

2009-05-20T01:38:00.000-07:00

Hmm... Suddenly something comes to my mind.
Fei told me she always dream about her wedding but she couldn't see who is the groom before she awake. If she never thought of getting hitched in future, why is she always dream of wedding ah?
She always tell me which wedding gown looks nice, giving me the url to view.. obviously, impossible that she never thought of marriage??

And frankly, why I never dreamt of my own wedding before ah??
Nobody wants me?? *criesssssssssssssssss*

Marriage

2009-05-19T01:47:00.000-07:00

Think of marriage, I'm scared.
I always know I will be marrying late, but now, I'm not even sure I will get married or not in future, hehe. I agree that, when you are really in love with someone, you can't wait to start a "new life" with him or her, but why am I feeling daunting? Anyway, getting married or not is not concerning me at this moment.

"When is Fei getting married?" - This is what concerning me all this while. Why? Because no one gets the "affirmative" answer from her then they will come and ask me. Gosh, how am I supposed to know??? Hello, I'm not the one who gonna weds her, laaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ Even my parents come and ask me!!

Anyway, I did ask her personally and she just tell me she had never thought for that before *shrugs*. Well, I told her, she could not blame everyone keeps asking the same question, again and again. There must be reasons why people keep asking her and she should really give it a thought right now.

So people, please don't ask me this question again, ok?
You wanna know, go ask her yourself :P

mIRC pt.2

2009-05-17T22:34:00.000-07:00

Well, when you've achieved your goal to become part of the "authorized personnel", it doesn't mean end of the story, you have a new mission here - how to stay put your "new identity & authority" so that all your efforts will not go down to the drain?

First and foremost, be "obedient" & "respect" your seniors or else, be a boot licker (yucks!).
I remembered once, I've heard from a friend saying the "authorized personnel" are required to do an assignment and hand up within a period else, their "authority" will be removed, how lame! Even, some of the "authority personnel" are compulsory to use a standardize "script".

Now, my interest to log in mIRC is not to gain any "access" but watching wars between chatters and "authorized personnel", woo hoo! syokkkkkkkk..

Anyway, I don't deny I do get a number of good friends from mIRC and we still keep in touch until now.
How many of you guys I've known for 10 years and still keep in touch now?

mIRC

2009-05-17T21:36:00.000-07:00

mIRC = Internet Relay Chat.
Wondering what is M stands for?

Anyway, I started to play IRC when I was in college, back to mid 1999. I was influenced by a neighbour of mine whom was chatting on IRC and I was curious about AOP, SOP, Founder... bla bla bla. Seeing him having "OP" authorities and popularity on particular channels, I challenge him by saying, I also can get an "OP' sooner than later.

Well, there are ways to become an "OP" for a channel. If you are lucky enough to have friends whom has authority to access that channel, they can "uplift" your "status" from normal chatter to "+" or "@". Else, you have to catch the "OPs" attention by becoming a very "friendly/active chatter" to uplift your status.... and "convince" them that you are able to "look after" the channel if anyone is making a fuss there. Thinking back, that is really lame and unfortunately I'd done that myself before...
haha :P

Anyway, everyone can be "friendly" as possible as they want, but... the saddest part is, do people really appreciate your "friendliness"? (Of course some with motive, just like me :P) You are just making yourself a clown out there if nobody replies you. At times, when you are "too" friendly, you will "infuriate" some people unknowingly or... some "authorized personnel" will start their "abusive act" out of boredom.

I have "retired" from mIRC for many years but there is 1 good thing I gained from mIRC and which is, it improved my typing skill, a lot! haha =P

Lake May May & Joe Lake: Stop being a lam0r on mIRC!!! =P
(I mean not begging OP but stop chatting on mIRC =P)

Secret

2009-05-10T19:19:00.000-07:00

It is funny when people wanna tell me their secret and they will "warn" me beforehand "..Keep it to yourself, don't tell anyone else, k...".

If you have decided to tell me your secret, means you trust me in the first place, aren't you? Why hafta send me a "gentle reminder" me again ? Maybe... "just in case" to make sure I don't leak out a word... or I'll be a dead meat, hehe.

It is not difficult to keep secret for other people but it's rather difficult to underwrap my own personal affair. If possible, I don't wish to keep it for a long period...

Destiny

2009-05-07T21:41:00.000-07:00

In the meantime of waiting, I went to watch "Threads of Destiny" to kill some extra time on hand.

It was on weekday and surprisingly, the cinema has been half-filled, guess... most of the movie-goers are college students and I really hate people talking when the show is on, be it on the phone, discussing the storyline or... making nonsense!

I did not pick this show purposely as I wasn't interested in any other show. As I passed by the giant standee of this movie, written there "touches xxxx of hearts", I raised my eyebrow and inside my heart I was whispering to myself "hmmm... let's wait and see then..."

The story is about love revolves high school students (a bunch of youngsters from the same class). Well, other than love, destiny and romantic coincidences, it talks about betrayal, friendship, kinship too. Well, I have to admit some scenes are really touching and I shed tears without having any tissue with me! Luckily I was watching alone else that will be very embarassing! :P

Can give it a try if you like Jap dramas/movies.

Japamala

2009-05-03T22:35:00.000-07:00

Great people. Great service. Great vacation spot.

I love it. Thank you.

Salonpas

2009-04-28T02:40:00.000-07:00

Gosh, I had never been this tired before... I hate moving out then moving in again!!

Already packing my stuff for a week, from tearing and throwing papers, packing the store room (with colleagues' help), packing the toilet (eventhough not many things), packing the pantry (just helping colleagues), packing the display shelf (although not many, at least 5 cartons), seems like never-ending with packing and packing!

It's not all about dumping the stuff into the empty carton box and seal it. Need to lift and carry heavy stuff and my shoulders are so ache now!!! I feel like I'm half dying now.. I think I need to stick 5 pieces of Salonpas on each shoulder tonight, ha! =P

Can someone drag me home now???? =/

Centipede

2009-04-27T00:05:00.000-07:00

Dream Interpretation Centipedes

To see a centipede in your dream, suggests that you are letting your fears and doubts hinder you from making progress and achieving your goals. You need to stop thinking negative thoughts.

Sewing

2009-04-21T20:21:00.000-07:00

I never liked sewing. I asked my mum to sew for me when I was given a "homework" in my secondary school. Oh, no doubt, my mum is a great tailor. She sewed our school uniforms, my "pretty skirts" when we were a child. She sewed clothes for aunties who lives nearby, she sewed uniforms for people who works in duty free too. Now, I'm not sure whether she still sewing or not but I will not encourage my mum sewing as she needs to concentrate and focus a lot, that will be very tiring.

Last night I was sewing my shirts and skirt =P

The thread already loosen, if I don't sew, my buttons gonna mislaid.

Notice of removal

2009-04-19T22:59:00.000-07:00

These 2 weeks gonna be busy with packing and throwing rubbish, moving over to our new office on 29th April, sienz!!

The new location is just so far away from the current place I'm staying now; Clementi - Senoko, argh!! Other than my transportation expenses are shooting up every month, most importantly, I gotta wake up very early in the morning to catch mrt and/or bus. Heard from my colleagues said, even there's a bus service, we still have to walk 10m from the bus stop to our new office. And, if not mistaken, we have to climb some stairs... hmm.. couldn't be there's no evelator "bah"..?

The place is "kinda" secluded, a manufacturing area.. with many factories around, I think we can save some money for our lunch and bring our own lunchbox!

Can slim down + saving some money, not bad huh? Hehe :P

Lazy

2009-04-19T22:48:00.000-07:00

Back from Taiwan for 1 week! That was fast! And I'm still "sleep-walking" everyday, don't feel like working and doing anything else, just wish to hang around doing nothing...

Maybe due to non-stop working for so many years (although I'm not that really old), yet... sometimes really wish to have some time to indulge myself, loafing around..

Tired

2009-04-14T02:58:00.000-07:00

Just got back from Taiwan and the next day I need to work and celebrate Fei's birthday.
Today, I'm going to cut and trim my hair, don't think can go home and rest early :(

Feel so tired and having stiff shoulder, really don't wish to work when the alarm rings in the morning! I just wish I could sleep longer and longer!

Still don't have the time to upload my pictures yet! And still, I need to "accumulate" pictures from my colleagues' camera, sienz...

Wanna see my picture, visit my facebook from time to time loh~ :P